My life is like I think fear is the strongest emotion I am feeling now.  Fear of staying single, fear of dealing with the kids on my own during the week after the breakup, fear of financial difficulties and fear that there might not be anyone else out there for me.  Maybe just having someone there to make you a cup of tea in the evenings or to pick you up if you fall down the stairs (not sure why I thought of that) but maybe that’s better than nothing.  My son has already told me I am a catfish so internet dating terrifies me. I think there are a lot of couples who are absolutely perfect for other people and that is definitely us so I feel I am doing the right thing giving us both the chance to find someone perfect.  Why do I feel so guilty though? Jenga and falling apart